I'm back after for how many long months.
It feels so good to be back -- if you did the same thing, you know the feeling

Anyway, I have BAD NEWS for myself.
_{since, nobody cares for me here}

JUST CATCH ME, I'M FALLING

We were friends. Best Friends. He´s my Bestest of all of my Best Friends and now I can´t feel him. He´s like AIR passing me by all the time.

He has found his new friends now and he likes to be with them more than me. (I´m not preventing him to have new friends, but, this NEW friends he has right now, urges him and makes him ignore me and his old pals.) He even went with them somewhere else without me knowing it, which he tells to me before. And, I was the one who´s always with him. Sometimes, when I see them together, I though of that, I am the one who´s supposed to be with him. In that place and that very moment.

Also, before, I was the one he asks to accompany him whenever he has to go somewhere else, but now.......

And today, I can´t explain what I´m feeling. At first, I was just jealous because he´s not treating me the way he does, or should I say, we do, before. The closeness I mean. I just wish to go back to the old times. But now, it seems like, I´m already falling for him. But, I don´t want our friendship to lose. I don´t want to give any meaning when I hold his hand, hug him or even just sit beside him. All I want is to be the best - Best Friend I can be. Nothing more. But, I´m starting to --- love¿¿ him. And I can´t help it to feel very bad whenever I see them together. It ruins my day.

But, I´m taking and trying so hard to push away all thoughts and feelings for him.
He´s my Best Friend. Maybe. If I am, too, for him.



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I´m falling like a leaf, falling like a star. I´m falling to where you are.